People don't always see what's right in front of them. What some people think is the obvious path or choice isnt always there. Many people dont notice what they have inside them to bring to the table. Yeah I may sound like I'm stating the obvious to you but to others they probably think it's a load of crap.
For me I know this is true because i've lived years in that blindness and over coming obsticle after obsticle and draggin along untill its done has shone me that what i thought I could do was no where near what I can do.
I thought that I was unpopular and therefore uncool since highschool. But popular is technically just about the number of people you know and have as friends. What i didn't see was that i had a ton of friends, they just werent the sterotypical A crowd. They were my friends right there being my support system.
Some people don't have a lot of friends or any at all. I went through periods where i didn't have them either. What you do have to do is look at the friend you do have even if its just one person and realize that this person chose to spend time with you rather than do something else with thier time. You are special enough to them to become part of thier day.
Now Life choices and Paths others don't see are hard because nine times out of ten you don't see these things for yourself you see it for other people.What we as observers must realize is they may not see it because they have a blindness they want to over come or believe honestly that thier way is better.
Still Honestly I've learned somethings for myself that I think need to be said.
-You don't need a boyfriend to be whole
-You are who YOU MAKE YOURSELF
-if you rely on a man to define you then you will disapear and become some one even
you don't know.
-If your scared of being alone know this YOU ARE NOT ALONE. "if we are all alone then we are all together in that. "--P.S I Love You
-There is always someone there cheering you one no matter how alone you feel.
-Maybe it's time to listen to the people shoutting "LET ME HELP YOU" from the sidelines
-HAVING FUN does NOT mean getting Drunk. YOu can have a great time in college compeltely sober, I do it everyday and every weekend
- Making out with or Having sex with every guy who shows the least bit intrest isn't always the safest thing. Especially when they are twice your size or their bicep is bigger than your head.
-Always go to parties with a friend never go alone...if you do your asking for trouble of all kinds.
-If you can find a designated driver ...DO NOT DRINK AND DRIVE.
-YOU ARE PERFECT JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. you don't have to please anyone but yourself so the real question is "are you happy?" I know what i just rattled off is talking about changing who you are but what i mean is You don't have to wear certain things and conform to be perfect or special.
-No body is any better or any worse than anyone else
-it is not the destination that makes us happy but rather the journey.
-There is no Stopping or Starting only doing
-I tend to rant
-If Any of you need a helping hand at discovering who you really are I'm an open comment box/ ear if you want to talk
I hope this sheds a little light on to why you may be unhappy and maybe I can help you fix it.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Love
Have you ever been in love? Dear dearest reader whoever you might be? I thought I had been before. i thought i'd been head over heals but i was so wrong. Now I am and I know it. I'm completely extatic. The only time i feel i can breathe and survive the stress anymore is when i'm with him. i've never felt so content as when i lay my head on his chest. The beating of his heart has gotten me through more worries than he knows. He's my cheerleader and my twin. I don't get bothered by his humor like others. I love the same things he does, love the same teams, have similar humor and get lost in his eyes every time he looks at me. He can make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time, that expression has always baffled me untill now. The night he told me he loved me i'd never been so happy. I just wanted to shout to the roof tops the best way i know how that I LOVE HIM and have never been so in love. Note to all of you who are losing faith in love wait for it and it will come to you. it's there hidden among leaves and leaves of people dancing before your eyes.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Music Can Bring You LIFE
Have you ever noticed the feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio?
That feeling where your mind and body just lets lose. where the crap from the day ahead no longer maters? For me that song is I.D.G.A.F by Breathe Carolina. For you it could be Taylor Swift or Linkin Park. What ever it doesn't matter, Life is about treasureing that feeling you get when it's on. That's the one thing i truely believe now at this momment. That momment is freedom that momment is power.
That freedom that makes you happy. I've been one to stand in a crowd waiting for the thrum of that guitar playing the best chord I’ve ever heard. I've felt the harsh beat of the speakers deafening my ears. I've screamed my head off for the greatest sounds to touch my heart. Once you've done that though how can you get enough? How is sitting at a desk enough? How is confining yourself to one identity enough? I’ve seen your faces standing next to me waiting for the release the same song I’m hearing gives you. There is a heaven inside the notes am I the only one who is reaching it?
Music Pumps life into people. It's a diffrent type of Creator. You could say God is inside music for me. I've always loved music and movies and books. Forget God being in music HE is in Inspiration and Imagination. Have you ever found someone or something that inspired you. Could be a teacher...
You could be inspired by a place ....
Like Ireland
Or Italy....
It could be a Movie ....
IT could be anything to Inspire you...As long as you take that inspiration and use it to make yourself happy. LIVE to the absoulte fullest. KNow when it comes time for you to go to God that you have BEEN HAPPY, sad, Angry, Loved , emotional to the maximum for no reason, daring and above all KNOW YOU'VE LIVED...you can't be afraid all the time...I know i need to take my own advice but you can't second guess that feeling that pumps through you when you stand in awe of something. Chase What excites you. Demand the satisfaction that thing gives you from the rest of your life DONT YOU DARE GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS...
That feeling where your mind and body just lets lose. where the crap from the day ahead no longer maters? For me that song is I.D.G.A.F by Breathe Carolina. For you it could be Taylor Swift or Linkin Park. What ever it doesn't matter, Life is about treasureing that feeling you get when it's on. That's the one thing i truely believe now at this momment. That momment is freedom that momment is power.
That freedom that makes you happy. I've been one to stand in a crowd waiting for the thrum of that guitar playing the best chord I’ve ever heard. I've felt the harsh beat of the speakers deafening my ears. I've screamed my head off for the greatest sounds to touch my heart. Once you've done that though how can you get enough? How is sitting at a desk enough? How is confining yourself to one identity enough? I’ve seen your faces standing next to me waiting for the release the same song I’m hearing gives you. There is a heaven inside the notes am I the only one who is reaching it?
Music Pumps life into people. It's a diffrent type of Creator. You could say God is inside music for me. I've always loved music and movies and books. Forget God being in music HE is in Inspiration and Imagination. Have you ever found someone or something that inspired you. Could be a teacher...
You could be inspired by a place ....
Like Ireland
Or Italy....
It could be a Movie ....
IT could be anything to Inspire you...As long as you take that inspiration and use it to make yourself happy. LIVE to the absoulte fullest. KNow when it comes time for you to go to God that you have BEEN HAPPY, sad, Angry, Loved , emotional to the maximum for no reason, daring and above all KNOW YOU'VE LIVED...you can't be afraid all the time...I know i need to take my own advice but you can't second guess that feeling that pumps through you when you stand in awe of something. Chase What excites you. Demand the satisfaction that thing gives you from the rest of your life DONT YOU DARE GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS...
Friday, July 23, 2010
Fear is Crippling!!!!!
I'm scared.
With everyday i grow older coming closer to the time when i need to figure out what I want in life. I fell like i don't know what that is but in truth I'm scared.
Scared becuase i want nothing more than to be a writer and or a Director or a Screenwriter. That's what I wanna be. What I'm worried about though is living a survivalble life with those jobs. Nothing is a garentee but those jobs aren't for people who need steady paychecks.
I don't see myself doing anything else anymore. Yeah I could be a lingist possibly at the CIA or somepalce else I don't know. But I dont see myself doing that. I don't feel like I fit those things. I feel like one of the three things I said before is what I want.
Still the Fear is crippling because I don't know how to get to the place where i can be those things. I don't know how to risk everything to be those. But its all I want
WHAT DO I DO? i need a little bit of guidence here. Help please.
With everyday i grow older coming closer to the time when i need to figure out what I want in life. I fell like i don't know what that is but in truth I'm scared.
Scared becuase i want nothing more than to be a writer and or a Director or a Screenwriter. That's what I wanna be. What I'm worried about though is living a survivalble life with those jobs. Nothing is a garentee but those jobs aren't for people who need steady paychecks.
I don't see myself doing anything else anymore. Yeah I could be a lingist possibly at the CIA or somepalce else I don't know. But I dont see myself doing that. I don't feel like I fit those things. I feel like one of the three things I said before is what I want.
Still the Fear is crippling because I don't know how to get to the place where i can be those things. I don't know how to risk everything to be those. But its all I want
WHAT DO I DO? i need a little bit of guidence here. Help please.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Books, Music, and TV :REVIEWS
THe A-Team (Movie) :
The orginal TV show staring Mister T was something I'd unfortuately never seen but looking at it on Hulu for a few seconds told me the action was too old school for my tastes. Meaning Action senes where guns are shot off then the image cuts to a planned spot explostion. I am Glad that this movie Was better. THe Action had flow and got the adrenline pumping. It kept your eyes hooked on the screen. The planning and plotting to pull off their mission was great. The comedic timing and character building was great and from what i could tell it was true to the orignal series. I HIghly Recomend this movie for a laugh and good action. The Chaotic order of how things just so happen to work was great for a laugh and Unpredictable. I LOVED THE MOVIE. So hope you do too.
The Prince OF Persia(Movie):
Jake Gyllenhall Is HOT. He only sort of pulls of the long hair. The hair has its moments but HIs body and Par Core (how ever you spell it) skills are good. He pulls off the accent well. HE's a good actor. Girls Love him, and soem would love the movie just cause he's in it.
Gemma A. She is soooooo pretty. I'm extremely Jellous of her prettiness, her accent, and good acting. Guys would love her. Lots of guys probably do. But yeah, she played Princess Tamina well. I loved the movie. THe twists and turns and comdedy blended into a good movie. I recomend this one too.
THe Killers:
Aston Kutcher is HOT, His body alone and the most of the comedic timing and funny lines are why I liked this movie. The story it's self, I've seen before. Sort of. also with how many people were out to kill the leads Kutcher and Katherine Heigel was a little over the top. But if your looking for a Hot body and a bit of laughter than go see it. I thought eh its ok. Not like OH my GOd I love it. I recomend this but only to a slim few.
Sex and the City 2:
It was good, I loved the Tv SHow, so I love the characters. I Loved the First Movie it was great. But the Second movie though still great fell short of the first. I Would recomend this but I'd also caution that be prepared it's not as good as the first.
TV
New showw I recomend that had spespence and great clothes and seems so far like a good story is PRETTY LITTLE LIARS. THe style, story, and placement is great.
BOOK Recomendations.
Eat Prey Love: Great book, philisophical, and fun. Its, not short but its good. I wanna go on a journey like Liz Gilbert.
WTF: THe title alone explains my sentiments about this book.Crazyiness that kept you on the edge of your seat wondering WTF was going on. I loved it.
The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner: It's intresting to see the other side of the Vampire attack on the Cullens in Eclipse. Bree if you've read the serries is the vampire who surrendered. It's an intresting take on how they kept everything from ALice.
Moive's I'm excited for.... The Karate Kid, Knight and Day, Eclipse and SOOO many others.
The orginal TV show staring Mister T was something I'd unfortuately never seen but looking at it on Hulu for a few seconds told me the action was too old school for my tastes. Meaning Action senes where guns are shot off then the image cuts to a planned spot explostion. I am Glad that this movie Was better. THe Action had flow and got the adrenline pumping. It kept your eyes hooked on the screen. The planning and plotting to pull off their mission was great. The comedic timing and character building was great and from what i could tell it was true to the orignal series. I HIghly Recomend this movie for a laugh and good action. The Chaotic order of how things just so happen to work was great for a laugh and Unpredictable. I LOVED THE MOVIE. So hope you do too.
The Prince OF Persia(Movie):
Jake Gyllenhall Is HOT. He only sort of pulls of the long hair. The hair has its moments but HIs body and Par Core (how ever you spell it) skills are good. He pulls off the accent well. HE's a good actor. Girls Love him, and soem would love the movie just cause he's in it.
Gemma A. She is soooooo pretty. I'm extremely Jellous of her prettiness, her accent, and good acting. Guys would love her. Lots of guys probably do. But yeah, she played Princess Tamina well. I loved the movie. THe twists and turns and comdedy blended into a good movie. I recomend this one too.
THe Killers:
Aston Kutcher is HOT, His body alone and the most of the comedic timing and funny lines are why I liked this movie. The story it's self, I've seen before. Sort of. also with how many people were out to kill the leads Kutcher and Katherine Heigel was a little over the top. But if your looking for a Hot body and a bit of laughter than go see it. I thought eh its ok. Not like OH my GOd I love it. I recomend this but only to a slim few.
Sex and the City 2:
It was good, I loved the Tv SHow, so I love the characters. I Loved the First Movie it was great. But the Second movie though still great fell short of the first. I Would recomend this but I'd also caution that be prepared it's not as good as the first.
TV
New showw I recomend that had spespence and great clothes and seems so far like a good story is PRETTY LITTLE LIARS. THe style, story, and placement is great.
BOOK Recomendations.
Eat Prey Love: Great book, philisophical, and fun. Its, not short but its good. I wanna go on a journey like Liz Gilbert.
WTF: THe title alone explains my sentiments about this book.Crazyiness that kept you on the edge of your seat wondering WTF was going on. I loved it.
The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner: It's intresting to see the other side of the Vampire attack on the Cullens in Eclipse. Bree if you've read the serries is the vampire who surrendered. It's an intresting take on how they kept everything from ALice.
Moive's I'm excited for.... The Karate Kid, Knight and Day, Eclipse and SOOO many others.
Catch Up on ME....as of 6-12-10
Hmm, Life is pretty slow at the momment. Summer is here. I'm in a good place sort of I can't get very motivated like i want to be but hey I'm on vacation. lol. Well... my camping trip didn't happen but i've been having loads of fun with my mom.
Aside from the hickup of my car battery having a wire loosen and kill my car momentairly. I am thanking God though that it was on a back street not the big Highway I'd been on minuets earlier. Little Miracels happen all the time apprently. It was funny when about 6 men from a house down the road came up to me and tried to help my PopPop fix the monster of a car I have.
I call it CoCo cause its a COgaur lol. I don't know I think I'm goin to change the name maybe Lindy I don't know. Why do I feel the need to name my car. that's a big thing with my friends almost all of them have cars with names. WHAT's Yours Named?
At least though I still got to go to the movies with my mom and bestfriend.
Wow, I just realized how long it's been since I posted on here wow. HOW have my readers been lol.
OOOOOH I finished my First Novel. Well I'm debating on fixing the ending...but now i'm working on the sequel.
Now all I gotta do is get a really good edittor and a Literary Agent to get it published.
That's the Dream after all... to see my name on a book in Barnes and Noble shelf. I wanna write for a living more than anything. THat or be a MOvie Critic.
I am flying blind though right now. All I'm really worrying about though is the process and all to get to study abroad in Ireland. And how I am going to get a better car.
Hope your days are filled with love, laughter and Peace.
Aside from the hickup of my car battery having a wire loosen and kill my car momentairly. I am thanking God though that it was on a back street not the big Highway I'd been on minuets earlier. Little Miracels happen all the time apprently. It was funny when about 6 men from a house down the road came up to me and tried to help my PopPop fix the monster of a car I have.
I call it CoCo cause its a COgaur lol. I don't know I think I'm goin to change the name maybe Lindy I don't know. Why do I feel the need to name my car. that's a big thing with my friends almost all of them have cars with names. WHAT's Yours Named?
At least though I still got to go to the movies with my mom and bestfriend.
Wow, I just realized how long it's been since I posted on here wow. HOW have my readers been lol.
OOOOOH I finished my First Novel. Well I'm debating on fixing the ending...but now i'm working on the sequel.
Now all I gotta do is get a really good edittor and a Literary Agent to get it published.
That's the Dream after all... to see my name on a book in Barnes and Noble shelf. I wanna write for a living more than anything. THat or be a MOvie Critic.
I am flying blind though right now. All I'm really worrying about though is the process and all to get to study abroad in Ireland. And how I am going to get a better car.
Hope your days are filled with love, laughter and Peace.
Friday, May 28, 2010
UGGG
I miss highschool, heck right now i miss my friends and school. I've been home for a few weeks now and just jonezing for that reunion, my best friend helped me move out of school but still miss him. and everyone...I miss highschool
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
WtF----is a book
Shout out to Peter Lerangis, he wrote "wtf" its a good book so far I bought it earlier today and currently have my "bookmark" if you could call it that on page 29 (not alot of time to read)
Anyways time for relevation blabbing...I was shopping with Mom today and decided you know what I've been trying and trying to get my "look" down for ages. I've never tired make up on my own. Mom, never need to teach me, cusions used me as their make over doll since I'm the youngest but that is to be expected. So She bought me some make up today. NO IDea why I wanted it but I do want it.
So, now I've trying to revamp myself again...I haven't gone out much since I got home for Summer but who cares. I wanna make myself feel pretty.
now Relevation....Why do I feel the need to change my appearance so much? Anyone care to venture a guess? Well I figure its because we are always evovling and changing.....
years ago I thought the bowl cut was great for me and getting a close cut (boy style), would look cute after I left the hair salon(Ha,was I wrong) but now I wana be grungy, rocker ish do my hair and wear make up.I like diffrent music and books, I used to read Amelia Badelia now I read WTF and Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert another fantastic read btw,....
That's just how I've evolved. It's always me I change into not someone else. I've been infulenced here and there but it's because I chose to let the clebs sway me here or there. Anyways how many people do You knwo that wear bright Neon Yellow converse with sparkly laces or silver sparkle covered one with white laces on a regular basis? I AM ME, right here and right now, IF YOU don't like how I look I dont care, just come back in 20 years and see how I am then ok? NO big deal I'm still becoming who I want to be....I hope you are brave enough to discover who that person is in your own life. Who do you want to be?
xoxo
The Everlasting ME!!!
Anyways time for relevation blabbing...I was shopping with Mom today and decided you know what I've been trying and trying to get my "look" down for ages. I've never tired make up on my own. Mom, never need to teach me, cusions used me as their make over doll since I'm the youngest but that is to be expected. So She bought me some make up today. NO IDea why I wanted it but I do want it.
So, now I've trying to revamp myself again...I haven't gone out much since I got home for Summer but who cares. I wanna make myself feel pretty.
now Relevation....Why do I feel the need to change my appearance so much? Anyone care to venture a guess? Well I figure its because we are always evovling and changing.....
years ago I thought the bowl cut was great for me and getting a close cut (boy style), would look cute after I left the hair salon(Ha,was I wrong) but now I wana be grungy, rocker ish do my hair and wear make up.I like diffrent music and books, I used to read Amelia Badelia now I read WTF and Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert another fantastic read btw,....
That's just how I've evolved. It's always me I change into not someone else. I've been infulenced here and there but it's because I chose to let the clebs sway me here or there. Anyways how many people do You knwo that wear bright Neon Yellow converse with sparkly laces or silver sparkle covered one with white laces on a regular basis? I AM ME, right here and right now, IF YOU don't like how I look I dont care, just come back in 20 years and see how I am then ok? NO big deal I'm still becoming who I want to be....I hope you are brave enough to discover who that person is in your own life. Who do you want to be?
xoxo
The Everlasting ME!!!
A Peom inspired by "Make me wanna Die" by the pretty Reckless
Deadly Romance
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My skin is cracking
in the fire. You’ve killed me
by dragging me across the line
my throat cut by the wire.
Walking in the mall
with my famous yellow shoes,
Converses, I saw you.
Your arm around her tiny
leather clad shoulders.
She’d found the jacket
I left at your apartment
that July night. She’s lucky
I didn’t rip her to shreds.
The look on your unshaven
face thought I might.
But no, I waited for you,
come back to your hotel room.
I waited for your hand
to touch the paint speckled
door knob before I shoved
hard on you back forcing
you inside.
You stumble, into the neon
blue couch I picked out.
Your eyes are darting
all over me. Your eyeing
my wild frizz and fringe
My white wash tank top
is tight, I’ve seen
that look in your eyes
before
Your eyes make me
burn up in the light.
I would die for you
I’ve lied and cried for you.
Coming close you whisper
she was to make me jealous.
In passion and anger I press
up against the wounds
I’ve licked. We set fire
to the apartment from that blue
couch where you left me for dead
after our hundredth mistake.
Play with fire and usually
it’s only the person that burns.
You killed me setting the blaze
because I came back again.
I lived and never learned.
by: Me
1:20 am May 18 2010
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My skin is cracking
in the fire. You’ve killed me
by dragging me across the line
my throat cut by the wire.
Walking in the mall
with my famous yellow shoes,
Converses, I saw you.
Your arm around her tiny
leather clad shoulders.
She’d found the jacket
I left at your apartment
that July night. She’s lucky
I didn’t rip her to shreds.
The look on your unshaven
face thought I might.
But no, I waited for you,
come back to your hotel room.
I waited for your hand
to touch the paint speckled
door knob before I shoved
hard on you back forcing
you inside.
You stumble, into the neon
blue couch I picked out.
Your eyes are darting
all over me. Your eyeing
my wild frizz and fringe
My white wash tank top
is tight, I’ve seen
that look in your eyes
before
Your eyes make me
burn up in the light.
I would die for you
I’ve lied and cried for you.
Coming close you whisper
she was to make me jealous.
In passion and anger I press
up against the wounds
I’ve licked. We set fire
to the apartment from that blue
couch where you left me for dead
after our hundredth mistake.
Play with fire and usually
it’s only the person that burns.
You killed me setting the blaze
because I came back again.
I lived and never learned.
by: Me
1:20 am May 18 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Belief...My Beliefs Hope they can shine light on you.
So, I've come to sort of a relevation.
I've always questioned the existance of God but i think i've come to a more solidified view. There so many views a person can have. the circumstances of the life you live determine that.
Well I've realized that weather or not the divine power running everything out there is called God, it still exists i think the easiest and most adaptable picture to condure for that power is "God".
My reasons for beleiving in this power are coming clearer now. I sit in front of my lap top and compose all kinds of detailed stories and poems. Usally people work for days to get inspiration but me. I don't have to think I see one thing and the sparks ignite. It can be an image a sign i drive by anything is a spark. People usally have plans to write a novel. I just type and the words flow. I don't know what comes next each line i wirte.
I think people lose sight of that magical fealing for me its with writing for others it is their own things.
Another reason why i believe is that someone how the firiends i have all seem to fit into my life and my puzzle of a world perfectly when their piece is a color very diffrent then mine. I love them all so much.
The thrid reason which is one more about heaven than god is when i stand at the graves of my lost family and i close my eyes i can feel them. I feel the warmth of their presence and am at peace knowing that they are watching over me. There is a peace in the inspiration out there. There is a magic in the way your friends are part of your life. There is a fullfillment in the idea that those who have gone are with us.
Our world has forgotten those things. We need to hold on to them because everything that they give us gives a bit of order to our lives i think.
I hope that the people in my life know a few things....
1... I love you all, no matter how close we are. I love you no matter if we have fought or cried or annoyed each other. I will always care about you. If you need me I'll do my best to be there.
2... Those who have passed are with us. Just close your eyes and remember the best image of them you have and feel your body let in the warmth and tingles. That feeling is those you love. Or so I beleive.
3... YOU are never alone. You may feel like it but you aren't. If you feel like you see no one you have to be brave and ask for help. Because just reaching out your hand when your blind means eventually you'll touch something to lean on.
If You need me I'll be that thing you need to lean on.
4...God or some higher power exists and is guiding us. How could it not when people like me get inspired. How could it not when the feeling of utter happiness still can feel you up at the random momments of time. How could there not be when you are alive.
5...There is always something to live for. There is a reason you alive no matter what you think. I know and strongly believe that when you go it's your time and if your still alive then you've got something worth living for.
I live and breathe all those things. I hope you can understand.
Oh, and Happy mother's day momma
Love
Chelsea
I've always questioned the existance of God but i think i've come to a more solidified view. There so many views a person can have. the circumstances of the life you live determine that.
Well I've realized that weather or not the divine power running everything out there is called God, it still exists i think the easiest and most adaptable picture to condure for that power is "God".
My reasons for beleiving in this power are coming clearer now. I sit in front of my lap top and compose all kinds of detailed stories and poems. Usally people work for days to get inspiration but me. I don't have to think I see one thing and the sparks ignite. It can be an image a sign i drive by anything is a spark. People usally have plans to write a novel. I just type and the words flow. I don't know what comes next each line i wirte.
I think people lose sight of that magical fealing for me its with writing for others it is their own things.
Another reason why i believe is that someone how the firiends i have all seem to fit into my life and my puzzle of a world perfectly when their piece is a color very diffrent then mine. I love them all so much.
The thrid reason which is one more about heaven than god is when i stand at the graves of my lost family and i close my eyes i can feel them. I feel the warmth of their presence and am at peace knowing that they are watching over me. There is a peace in the inspiration out there. There is a magic in the way your friends are part of your life. There is a fullfillment in the idea that those who have gone are with us.
Our world has forgotten those things. We need to hold on to them because everything that they give us gives a bit of order to our lives i think.
I hope that the people in my life know a few things....
1... I love you all, no matter how close we are. I love you no matter if we have fought or cried or annoyed each other. I will always care about you. If you need me I'll do my best to be there.
2... Those who have passed are with us. Just close your eyes and remember the best image of them you have and feel your body let in the warmth and tingles. That feeling is those you love. Or so I beleive.
3... YOU are never alone. You may feel like it but you aren't. If you feel like you see no one you have to be brave and ask for help. Because just reaching out your hand when your blind means eventually you'll touch something to lean on.
If You need me I'll be that thing you need to lean on.
4...God or some higher power exists and is guiding us. How could it not when people like me get inspired. How could it not when the feeling of utter happiness still can feel you up at the random momments of time. How could there not be when you are alive.
5...There is always something to live for. There is a reason you alive no matter what you think. I know and strongly believe that when you go it's your time and if your still alive then you've got something worth living for.
I live and breathe all those things. I hope you can understand.
Oh, and Happy mother's day momma
Love
Chelsea
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
I FINISHED IT....
I FINISHED WRITING MY FIRST NOVEL....OMG, I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW. I AM SO EXCITED. DOES ANYONE KNOW A LITERARY AGENT?
Monday, May 3, 2010
All That's Known-----Spring Awakening------The Song of My life
All that's known
In History, in Science
Overthrown
At school, at home, by blind men
You doubt them,
And soon they bark and hound you
Till everything you say is just another bad about you
All they say
Is "Trust in what is written"
Wars are made
And somehow that is wisdom
Thought is suspect
And money is their idol
And nothing is okay unless it's scripted in their Bible
But I know
There's so much more to find
Just in looking through myself, and not at them
Still, I know
To trust my own true mind
And to say there�s a way through this
On I go
To wonder and to learning
Name the stars and know their dark returning
I'm calling
To know the world's true yearning
The hunger that a child feels for everything they're shown
You watch me
Just watch me
I'm calling
And one day all will know
You watch me
Just watch me
I�m calling
I'm calling
And one day all will know
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9v9Ut1IcEqg
In History, in Science
Overthrown
At school, at home, by blind men
You doubt them,
And soon they bark and hound you
Till everything you say is just another bad about you
All they say
Is "Trust in what is written"
Wars are made
And somehow that is wisdom
Thought is suspect
And money is their idol
And nothing is okay unless it's scripted in their Bible
But I know
There's so much more to find
Just in looking through myself, and not at them
Still, I know
To trust my own true mind
And to say there�s a way through this
On I go
To wonder and to learning
Name the stars and know their dark returning
I'm calling
To know the world's true yearning
The hunger that a child feels for everything they're shown
You watch me
Just watch me
I'm calling
And one day all will know
You watch me
Just watch me
I�m calling
I'm calling
And one day all will know
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9v9Ut1IcEqg
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Eat, Pray, Love....Just do it.
I went and saw a movie with my mother last weekend. It was The Back-Up Plan. Aside from being completely disturbed by the sight of a women giving natural home birth we had fun. Heck it was fun freaking out to that sight.
Point to that was I saw a preview for the movie Coming out called Eat, Pray, Love. It said it had been a book so I looked it up. THe preview looked so cool. thought it looked so cool....Ordered the book from B&N two days ago
Got it today and I'm on page 40 it is really cool. I want to do what she did. I want to go to Italy and study the art of Pleasure. I Want to study the art of Devotion in India and the Balancing of the Two in Indonisia maybe I will.
I haven't gone through half the things she did but sometimes my life just doesn't make senes I think a trip like that would truly teach me things about myself I have never known.
The book is supper inspiring. Another way of life that I completely agree with.
MUST READS For you are now
The Way of the Peacful Warrior--
-By Dan Millman but the Movie is more effective to me.
ANd
Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert.
Oh and
My Favorite Apoclypse by Catie Rosemurgy
and HOuses are Fields by Taje Silverman
Point to that was I saw a preview for the movie Coming out called Eat, Pray, Love. It said it had been a book so I looked it up. THe preview looked so cool. thought it looked so cool....Ordered the book from B&N two days ago
Got it today and I'm on page 40 it is really cool. I want to do what she did. I want to go to Italy and study the art of Pleasure. I Want to study the art of Devotion in India and the Balancing of the Two in Indonisia maybe I will.
I haven't gone through half the things she did but sometimes my life just doesn't make senes I think a trip like that would truly teach me things about myself I have never known.
The book is supper inspiring. Another way of life that I completely agree with.
MUST READS For you are now
The Way of the Peacful Warrior--
-By Dan Millman but the Movie is more effective to me.
ANd
Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert.
Oh and
My Favorite Apoclypse by Catie Rosemurgy
and HOuses are Fields by Taje Silverman
New, Old, Found, Hopes, Dreams
I am a Conasure of new things you could say. But at the same time I'm not. I want to be adventous yet I'm not as much as I could be.
I change my nails like everyday. Just because I have the whim and ability to do it. Something is always diffrent about me each day.
I got a friend to cut my hair last night lol. I have Yellow bright yellow converses and Sparkle covered ones. I am New and CHanging. I am expanding. I am growing in expansive bounds. I am becoming someone I want to be. Or rather discovering who I have always been
The adventous soul is something I wish I knew I had. I wish i had the ability to use it. I don't find many adventures besides the ones i go on wiht my music.
I want to see the world. I want ot find Love, Religon, and the best foods ever. I want to find the tresures that are in the coners of forgotten streets of forgien contries. I want to make a child im not related to smile. I want to learn a forth Language.
I want so much. I've got a bruning flame inside me that is itching for freedom but Ihavent gotten that far yet. I'm still learning how to walk. My life is growing and I have faith I'll vist those places I want to go.
May your life be filled with all you want.
I change my nails like everyday. Just because I have the whim and ability to do it. Something is always diffrent about me each day.
I got a friend to cut my hair last night lol. I have Yellow bright yellow converses and Sparkle covered ones. I am New and CHanging. I am expanding. I am growing in expansive bounds. I am becoming someone I want to be. Or rather discovering who I have always been
The adventous soul is something I wish I knew I had. I wish i had the ability to use it. I don't find many adventures besides the ones i go on wiht my music.
I want to see the world. I want ot find Love, Religon, and the best foods ever. I want to find the tresures that are in the coners of forgotten streets of forgien contries. I want to make a child im not related to smile. I want to learn a forth Language.
I want so much. I've got a bruning flame inside me that is itching for freedom but Ihavent gotten that far yet. I'm still learning how to walk. My life is growing and I have faith I'll vist those places I want to go.
May your life be filled with all you want.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Hunger is stronger than want.
So many diffrent types of hunger exist. For instance Im hungry right now. My stomach is growling. I need food. :D But also Im hungry and other ways.
I hunger for knowalge. I hunger for a spark of imagination.I hunger for the person who will make me laugh and smile as much as he possible can just because he wants to. I hunger for the person to understand. I hunger for the connection of new friends and new people.
But to Hunger for things is human right and these things are material. I've heard I should hunger for God's love but to me I don't put stock in following a defined faith. God loves me for my mind and my heart and how I use them everyday.
We all hunger for things. Im normal in that respect. But how many people want to help others? I do. I don't just want it either I feel like I need to. I feel like its something everyone should try. There is something rewarding in helping. You just gotta find out how you can.
Life is short. I don't call it living unless you do embrace these hungers and really live. Life is yours to define. You were put here for a reason. I want nothing more than to stand before the gates of heaven when I've passed away and say I've had an amazing life. I've had adventures that were unforgetable I don't want to be with regret. I don't think anyone does right?
I am going to read as much as I can. I am going to see all the movies I can and the momment I can take an adventure I will. I hope you will too who ever you are reading this.
I hunger for knowalge. I hunger for a spark of imagination.I hunger for the person who will make me laugh and smile as much as he possible can just because he wants to. I hunger for the person to understand. I hunger for the connection of new friends and new people.
But to Hunger for things is human right and these things are material. I've heard I should hunger for God's love but to me I don't put stock in following a defined faith. God loves me for my mind and my heart and how I use them everyday.
We all hunger for things. Im normal in that respect. But how many people want to help others? I do. I don't just want it either I feel like I need to. I feel like its something everyone should try. There is something rewarding in helping. You just gotta find out how you can.
Life is short. I don't call it living unless you do embrace these hungers and really live. Life is yours to define. You were put here for a reason. I want nothing more than to stand before the gates of heaven when I've passed away and say I've had an amazing life. I've had adventures that were unforgetable I don't want to be with regret. I don't think anyone does right?
I am going to read as much as I can. I am going to see all the movies I can and the momment I can take an adventure I will. I hope you will too who ever you are reading this.
Re- discovery
I have been realizing that I've got lazy. I've kinda lost that lust for excitment.
I want an adventure I guess. I want to go hang out with new people. I want to open my horizons even further. But still I think i've got to rediscover the things that made me dance around in my seat. The things that made me feel fantastic you know.
I've built up a big collection of music on my Mp3 so I'm going through song by song redisvovering things I havent heard in forever.
I forgot that I love the Click Five. lol. And Craig David's Friday Night...Oh and Eric Hutchinson Rock and Roll. Love it.
I've forced myself to go back over my novel and rediscover the power that it's given my imagination. I've got ideas for other things bursting out the seams of my mind.
I've realized that I've been looking for the wrong things from the people around me. I've been looking for them to give me the things that I never really needed or wanted. I've been waiting for things to go wrong.
I thought they made me who I am but they don't. I have a sense of humor. I have a goofy side. I have myself with out them.
What I am realizing Now though is these people are there and I love them for little things. I love that they can make me laugh. I love that when I need them most of the time they are there. I love that they know how to make senes of things I do that don't make senes and when they can't they just go along for the ride. I love that they care enough to stay. I car so much for my friends I hope they know how I appreciate them.
Discoveries are fun too....
I've discovered....
I love to dance.
I am addicted to painting my nails.
I can stand on my own two feet.
I know what I want and I can't be afraid to go get it any more.
I've got so much Love in my life I'm so thankful for it.
I don't need a boyfriend or a crush to keep my life good. I controll how my days go.
I am not defined by who I am with but by the actions I do.
That God has thrown me alot of curve balls maybe it's so I'll be ready to deal with things to come. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right?
I want to be a Flim Critic.
I want to write because I its one thing I know I'm good at.
I love Art of all kinds.
Also a big one was .......
My mother and I are lucky we have the bond we do. I see my friends with their mothers and how they get annoyed and don't want them involved and realize everytime that they are missing out. My mother is my best friend, sister, teacher, guide, mommy, savior, warrior, shoulder to cry on. Whatever i need she has and always will be there believeing me I love her so much for that and more.
All this makes me realize I'm not searching for who I am.
I am searching for what to do with the person I am. I want so much.
I just gotta make it happen.
If you have any idea what this feels like than I hope your happy right now like I am. Well heck. I hope your Happy regardless. No one deserves to be un happy.
Music is how I take adventures sitting in one spot. Which with out money it's all i've got.
Here are some songs to have fun with boy or girl. Get them and Burn them into a mix call it Discovery by Chelsea.
1. Hold Your Dreams--- Cast of Fame (2009 version)
2. Pop Princess--- Click Five
3. Friday night---Craig David
4. Rock and Roll---- Eric Hutchinson
5. Walking in the Sun---Dirty Vegas
6. Gossple Truth 1 --- Hercules (Disney Movie)
7. Long Time Gone---Dixie Chicks.
8. Mercy--- Duffy
9. Bennie and the Jets--- Elton John!!!!!!!!
10. How to save a Life----The Fray
11. Sour Cherry---- (Album OMFGG from gossip girl.)
12. Fame--Naturi Nation
13. Try-- Asher Book (Fame 2009)
14. Hollywoods Not America--- Ferras
15. (Your all time favorite song what ever it is)
I want an adventure I guess. I want to go hang out with new people. I want to open my horizons even further. But still I think i've got to rediscover the things that made me dance around in my seat. The things that made me feel fantastic you know.
I've built up a big collection of music on my Mp3 so I'm going through song by song redisvovering things I havent heard in forever.
I forgot that I love the Click Five. lol. And Craig David's Friday Night...Oh and Eric Hutchinson Rock and Roll. Love it.
I've forced myself to go back over my novel and rediscover the power that it's given my imagination. I've got ideas for other things bursting out the seams of my mind.
I've realized that I've been looking for the wrong things from the people around me. I've been looking for them to give me the things that I never really needed or wanted. I've been waiting for things to go wrong.
I thought they made me who I am but they don't. I have a sense of humor. I have a goofy side. I have myself with out them.
What I am realizing Now though is these people are there and I love them for little things. I love that they can make me laugh. I love that when I need them most of the time they are there. I love that they know how to make senes of things I do that don't make senes and when they can't they just go along for the ride. I love that they care enough to stay. I car so much for my friends I hope they know how I appreciate them.
Discoveries are fun too....
I've discovered....
I love to dance.
I am addicted to painting my nails.
I can stand on my own two feet.
I know what I want and I can't be afraid to go get it any more.
I've got so much Love in my life I'm so thankful for it.
I don't need a boyfriend or a crush to keep my life good. I controll how my days go.
I am not defined by who I am with but by the actions I do.
That God has thrown me alot of curve balls maybe it's so I'll be ready to deal with things to come. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right?
I want to be a Flim Critic.
I want to write because I its one thing I know I'm good at.
I love Art of all kinds.
Also a big one was .......
My mother and I are lucky we have the bond we do. I see my friends with their mothers and how they get annoyed and don't want them involved and realize everytime that they are missing out. My mother is my best friend, sister, teacher, guide, mommy, savior, warrior, shoulder to cry on. Whatever i need she has and always will be there believeing me I love her so much for that and more.
All this makes me realize I'm not searching for who I am.
I am searching for what to do with the person I am. I want so much.
I just gotta make it happen.
If you have any idea what this feels like than I hope your happy right now like I am. Well heck. I hope your Happy regardless. No one deserves to be un happy.
Music is how I take adventures sitting in one spot. Which with out money it's all i've got.
Here are some songs to have fun with boy or girl. Get them and Burn them into a mix call it Discovery by Chelsea.
1. Hold Your Dreams--- Cast of Fame (2009 version)
2. Pop Princess--- Click Five
3. Friday night---Craig David
4. Rock and Roll---- Eric Hutchinson
5. Walking in the Sun---Dirty Vegas
6. Gossple Truth 1 --- Hercules (Disney Movie)
7. Long Time Gone---Dixie Chicks.
8. Mercy--- Duffy
9. Bennie and the Jets--- Elton John!!!!!!!!
10. How to save a Life----The Fray
11. Sour Cherry---- (Album OMFGG from gossip girl.)
12. Fame--Naturi Nation
13. Try-- Asher Book (Fame 2009)
14. Hollywoods Not America--- Ferras
15. (Your all time favorite song what ever it is)
Monday, April 26, 2010
Well....hmmm....When is a raven like a writing desk....?
I've been rather lax on my life ethic for the momment but that is to be expected summer is coming school is almost up. I'm ready to be done with it all. Im ready to sleep for a week. lol.
One thing I've learned in College the importance of a good nap. When your sleep schedual is a mess like mine and your waking up at 2 or 3 am for a bathroom trip then not falling back to sleep for a while you kinda learn to get sleep where you can. even if its only a few minuets then hey it's something right.
OH my novel is almost done. I am going very slowly trying to forse myself to work on this instead of my sequel and instead of my other stuff....
Still Can't decide if I like the Name Alice or Lux better with Dimitri. I love the Name Dimitri its just sexy. but Alice or Lux is the main character. Lux means light in Latin. I don't know its such a big part of the story seeing as she is the main character but i can't chose. ugg.
Is it weried i still watch clips and love Disney movies. I love the music.
OH btw i've realized i want to be a flim critic. It encompious all i want to do. I want to write. I want to read. I want to watch movies. Like i usaully do. I like sharing my oppions and the more I watch the more i find there are specifc things i like not just movies in general. I can evaluate movies pretty acuratlly lol.
Well off for a nap before dinner. :D See you all later.
FIND YOUR ADVENTURE.
I've been rather lax on my life ethic for the momment but that is to be expected summer is coming school is almost up. I'm ready to be done with it all. Im ready to sleep for a week. lol.
One thing I've learned in College the importance of a good nap. When your sleep schedual is a mess like mine and your waking up at 2 or 3 am for a bathroom trip then not falling back to sleep for a while you kinda learn to get sleep where you can. even if its only a few minuets then hey it's something right.
OH my novel is almost done. I am going very slowly trying to forse myself to work on this instead of my sequel and instead of my other stuff....
Still Can't decide if I like the Name Alice or Lux better with Dimitri. I love the Name Dimitri its just sexy. but Alice or Lux is the main character. Lux means light in Latin. I don't know its such a big part of the story seeing as she is the main character but i can't chose. ugg.
Is it weried i still watch clips and love Disney movies. I love the music.
OH btw i've realized i want to be a flim critic. It encompious all i want to do. I want to write. I want to read. I want to watch movies. Like i usaully do. I like sharing my oppions and the more I watch the more i find there are specifc things i like not just movies in general. I can evaluate movies pretty acuratlly lol.
Well off for a nap before dinner. :D See you all later.
FIND YOUR ADVENTURE.
All I need to Learn about Life i learned from Gilmore grils (seeing is the show is my life lol)
. ALmost anything can be "Dirty"
.The four food groups consist of: fast food, junk food, frozen foods, and take-out
.Always carry a book; you never know when you'll need it.
.Oy, with the poodles already.
.God lives in London.
.Coffee is essential for survival
.Swans are vicious birds
.BENDEL-SHNITZ!!!!!!!!!
.Snow is Magical
.The diffrence between cows and humans is hay
'Childbirth is like doing the splits on a case of dynamite.
.The fish flies at night
.BRAZZLE-FRAT!!!!!!
.if you walk with a Harry Potter book on your head and drop the book, Harry will die.
.If men can name thier kids after themselves, then why not women?
.Never buy something just because it's furry
.Backwards baseball caps and flannel never go out of style
.COPPER BOOM!!!!
. Its much better to have a haunted leg than a cold
.You can never have too many Thanksgiving dinners
.Booze is grown up milk and cookies
. A lap is an illusion
.If your're frustred with someone, try pushing them into a lake
.When stuck in a hopeless situation, climb out the Balcony window
.Answer to peperioni
.Roomba= vacuum and entertainment in one fity package
.Beware of Jeep-hiiting deer
.Keep that horoscope, it may bring you luck
.Stay away from windows when drinking
.The Last Supper cannot be funky
.Sometimes you just gotta devil egg a car.
.The greatest of bonds is that of a mother and daughter.
.The four food groups consist of: fast food, junk food, frozen foods, and take-out
.Always carry a book; you never know when you'll need it.
.Oy, with the poodles already.
.God lives in London.
.Coffee is essential for survival
.Swans are vicious birds
.BENDEL-SHNITZ!!!!!!!!!
.Snow is Magical
.The diffrence between cows and humans is hay
'Childbirth is like doing the splits on a case of dynamite.
.The fish flies at night
.BRAZZLE-FRAT!!!!!!
.if you walk with a Harry Potter book on your head and drop the book, Harry will die.
.If men can name thier kids after themselves, then why not women?
.Never buy something just because it's furry
.Backwards baseball caps and flannel never go out of style
.COPPER BOOM!!!!
. Its much better to have a haunted leg than a cold
.You can never have too many Thanksgiving dinners
.Booze is grown up milk and cookies
. A lap is an illusion
.If your're frustred with someone, try pushing them into a lake
.When stuck in a hopeless situation, climb out the Balcony window
.Answer to peperioni
.Roomba= vacuum and entertainment in one fity package
.Beware of Jeep-hiiting deer
.Keep that horoscope, it may bring you luck
.Stay away from windows when drinking
.The Last Supper cannot be funky
.Sometimes you just gotta devil egg a car.
.The greatest of bonds is that of a mother and daughter.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Strange things
I have found out that i do alot of quirky things. Last night at 12:30 when I should have gone to bed I rearanged my desk in my room.
Lol I got so excited yesterday getting to meet Chelsea Handler. She loved that my first name was exactly the same as hers so she signed my book. Chelsea + Chelsea BFF. I got so excited. Im reading her book now it is soooooooo good. I love it.
I literally jumped for joy when I saw my mother bought me Sherlock Homes on DVD.
I get so many Ideas for novels. And can't finish the one closest to being done. lol.
I don't care when I don't match.
I do things spur of the momment because it keeps life intresting.
I want to be friends with as many people I can. I hate Having enemies but that is true of us all.
My mother truly is my best friend. But then I've got two other best friends right under her than a million great ones spread out over my home town and College town.
I like spending my time watching movies and writing more than doing anything else.
I WANNA BE A MOVIE CRITIC.
I am completely and utterly jellous of Johnny Deep because sometimes I wanna be the mad hatter.
Now what does this add up to I am a Strange individual yes, well maybe, but THAT IS WHO I AM. AND WHO I WILL ALWAYS BE.
WHO ARE YOU? what makes you who you ar?
Lol I got so excited yesterday getting to meet Chelsea Handler. She loved that my first name was exactly the same as hers so she signed my book. Chelsea + Chelsea BFF. I got so excited. Im reading her book now it is soooooooo good. I love it.
I literally jumped for joy when I saw my mother bought me Sherlock Homes on DVD.
I get so many Ideas for novels. And can't finish the one closest to being done. lol.
I don't care when I don't match.
I do things spur of the momment because it keeps life intresting.
I want to be friends with as many people I can. I hate Having enemies but that is true of us all.
My mother truly is my best friend. But then I've got two other best friends right under her than a million great ones spread out over my home town and College town.
I like spending my time watching movies and writing more than doing anything else.
I WANNA BE A MOVIE CRITIC.
I am completely and utterly jellous of Johnny Deep because sometimes I wanna be the mad hatter.
Now what does this add up to I am a Strange individual yes, well maybe, but THAT IS WHO I AM. AND WHO I WILL ALWAYS BE.
WHO ARE YOU? what makes you who you ar?
Monday, April 5, 2010
Sad and Angry People
The world is full of pain and angry people. I've noticed that alot lately. Some are just down right mean to you then there are others who are twisted. They stick the knife in your back and make you look the other way while they twist the blade. It kills me to know I have people like that in my life. I know who they are now but for my own reasons I keep them there. I don't entirely know why I keep them there but I do....
The Anger these people is their own and not mine. I am realizing more and more that I can't let their problems dictate my life. My life is my own. I am a person who choses her own path. I chose to live how I want. Most of the time my life is not on the beaten path so the people coming against me are large in number but I have to deal with it like we all do.
I've always questioned "God"'s existance but if he's there then I just hope he realizes we need him now. I know my life is no where near bad but sometimes I just wish I knew that he was on our side. I have so much trouble believeing in a God who let's all the pain I've seen happen. I wasn't raised religous so that isn't something I grew through the years with so I guess that could be why I'm not PRO GOD. But either way look around you and look at the starving children. Look at the self center and angry people out there. Is really ok that they exist like this. Why are they there? DO THEY TRUELY MAKE US STRONGER?
What comes with these Angry people is usally Sad people.
NOw the Sad people are a little more important to me cause if thier sad then maybe I can help...But that's not always true.
I had a blast from the past not to long ago a few minuets ago actually. my Junior year in Highschool a guy I used to know a little (we were by no means close) took his own life. The days that followed that were devestating. I knew his ex-girlfirend at the time and i've never seen someone cry so hard. I don't know if I could take it myself. I HOPE IF GOD DOES EXIST HE CAN HELP HER FIND PEACE.
Sad people are always looking for something I think. Some need a helping hand. Some need someone to listen. Some need someone to support them. Some need to be left alone and figure things out for themselves. There are some who need you to break through the walls they have put up and break them down. Some need you to force them to deal with an issue. Some need to stand on their own feet some need to breathe agian. Some need to talk. SOme need to cry. Some need to hit something. Some need someone to hold them. SOme need a heart to embrace theirs. Some need ot know that there is some one out there to care about them. Some need love or forgivness. SOme need to feel something again......
I was one of those sad people once. In ways I still am but I've come far. I am happier alot more. I am more clear on who I want to be abd How I want to live and that makes me Happy. I hope those Sad and Angry people can get there too. I was Angry too. I still do get Mad/Pissed/Fuming which ever word you want to use or understand. Of course I do. We all do. SOme people just wont let go of that anger. I am doing my best to fix that. I hope if anyone is reading this u are too.
Be Mad and Sad if you have to be but as I see it survial depends on seeing the bright side. which if nothing else seems bright know this.....
YOU ARE ALIVE AND I CARE ABOUT YOU.
The Anger these people is their own and not mine. I am realizing more and more that I can't let their problems dictate my life. My life is my own. I am a person who choses her own path. I chose to live how I want. Most of the time my life is not on the beaten path so the people coming against me are large in number but I have to deal with it like we all do.
I've always questioned "God"'s existance but if he's there then I just hope he realizes we need him now. I know my life is no where near bad but sometimes I just wish I knew that he was on our side. I have so much trouble believeing in a God who let's all the pain I've seen happen. I wasn't raised religous so that isn't something I grew through the years with so I guess that could be why I'm not PRO GOD. But either way look around you and look at the starving children. Look at the self center and angry people out there. Is really ok that they exist like this. Why are they there? DO THEY TRUELY MAKE US STRONGER?
What comes with these Angry people is usally Sad people.
NOw the Sad people are a little more important to me cause if thier sad then maybe I can help...But that's not always true.
I had a blast from the past not to long ago a few minuets ago actually. my Junior year in Highschool a guy I used to know a little (we were by no means close) took his own life. The days that followed that were devestating. I knew his ex-girlfirend at the time and i've never seen someone cry so hard. I don't know if I could take it myself. I HOPE IF GOD DOES EXIST HE CAN HELP HER FIND PEACE.
Sad people are always looking for something I think. Some need a helping hand. Some need someone to listen. Some need someone to support them. Some need to be left alone and figure things out for themselves. There are some who need you to break through the walls they have put up and break them down. Some need you to force them to deal with an issue. Some need to stand on their own feet some need to breathe agian. Some need to talk. SOme need to cry. Some need to hit something. Some need someone to hold them. SOme need a heart to embrace theirs. Some need ot know that there is some one out there to care about them. Some need love or forgivness. SOme need to feel something again......
I was one of those sad people once. In ways I still am but I've come far. I am happier alot more. I am more clear on who I want to be abd How I want to live and that makes me Happy. I hope those Sad and Angry people can get there too. I was Angry too. I still do get Mad/Pissed/Fuming which ever word you want to use or understand. Of course I do. We all do. SOme people just wont let go of that anger. I am doing my best to fix that. I hope if anyone is reading this u are too.
Be Mad and Sad if you have to be but as I see it survial depends on seeing the bright side. which if nothing else seems bright know this.....
YOU ARE ALIVE AND I CARE ABOUT YOU.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Magic
There is Magic in the world. Maybe there is Hocus Pocus magic but that is not what I am talking about. I am talking about the small momments in life that make your day. The momments that take your breath away.Then at the same time
I am finding a lot of Magic these days. I love reading. I love watching movies. I love music and writing. I've realized I also love talking lately...but anyway not the point.
You know the feeling when you talk to some one and that person can say anything and make you smile uncontrolably. I don't know why but I feel that way. Just a simple answer to a question makes me happy.
Lately,I have been avoding finishing my novel. But the Magic part about this is the sheer mass of ideas floating into my head. I love inspiration. I love that feeling of the animalistic need to get it out.
I love laughing with my friends. I love the magical feeling of being truly happy. I am also truly happy with the Magic of being strange.
I am a strange person but as long as life is entertaining it is fantastic and turly
MAGICAL
I am finding a lot of Magic these days. I love reading. I love watching movies. I love music and writing. I've realized I also love talking lately...but anyway not the point.
You know the feeling when you talk to some one and that person can say anything and make you smile uncontrolably. I don't know why but I feel that way. Just a simple answer to a question makes me happy.
Lately,I have been avoding finishing my novel. But the Magic part about this is the sheer mass of ideas floating into my head. I love inspiration. I love that feeling of the animalistic need to get it out.
I love laughing with my friends. I love the magical feeling of being truly happy. I am also truly happy with the Magic of being strange.
I am a strange person but as long as life is entertaining it is fantastic and turly
MAGICAL
Monday, March 29, 2010
Fixer Upper
I've been fixing alot of things in my life lately. It seems strange to think about. I noticed this at first when I went and figured out what was so wrong with my blog. Then when I had to get my computer fixed.
I also fixed my headaches. I found out what they were and they have gone away this cycle. I fixed my diet. I have eatten salads and more healty stuff. I don't drink soda any more. I feel like I alot of my life is changing.
Probably for the better. I am in such a better mood now. I have alot of insacurities still but it will work out I know it will.
Today is rainy but its a better day than I've had in a while. Even after my random anxiety attack last night when my computer got spilled on. It wouldn't work and I couldn't do Italian homework. I flipped out. I don't know what was wrong with me.
I was seriously messed up. I think I was more concered about losing my novel. Ut oh.
Well off to watch more True Blood and work on my novel's squeal I was hand writing.
I also fixed my headaches. I found out what they were and they have gone away this cycle. I fixed my diet. I have eatten salads and more healty stuff. I don't drink soda any more. I feel like I alot of my life is changing.
Probably for the better. I am in such a better mood now. I have alot of insacurities still but it will work out I know it will.
Today is rainy but its a better day than I've had in a while. Even after my random anxiety attack last night when my computer got spilled on. It wouldn't work and I couldn't do Italian homework. I flipped out. I don't know what was wrong with me.
I was seriously messed up. I think I was more concered about losing my novel. Ut oh.
Well off to watch more True Blood and work on my novel's squeal I was hand writing.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Can't shake it.
I feel like something is wrong. I don't know. I really am going crazy. My friend Green Bean is really lucky. I met her boyfriend. You can tell just looking at him that he really cares about her.
Anyways, the whole point of this blog. is to try and suss out why I am feeling this way.
I was talking last night with that guy. I think it scares me someone being really nice and the moment he stops talking for some reason I feel really insecure. I have MAJOR ISSUES. I guess that is one way to say it. Maybe I really just need to stop looking but right now at this point it's like telling me to stop breathing. I hate being this way but I don't know how to change it.
Next thing. I haven't gone to the gym in a very long time and am on my last nerve with how my half is the only half of the room that is clean.
I don't like this feeling. I try to be the funny, nice, sweet, honest , and flirty girl. But it always backfires for one reason or another. I don't know. I either come on too strong or not enough. I am sucky at this. I feel like I should crawl into a ball most days and just not move cause if i do it hurts. UGGG, why for once can't I find a realitonship and be happy again. I am happy when I am with my friends now and all but. I want to find love. I am hopeless romantic.
IS THIS GOD PUNISHING ME FOR HOW I BROKE UP WITH MY EX? IS THAT IT? was I wrong for breaking up with the guy who treated me like a child most days and ignored me for his music others? Why am I not allowed to want to be the thing a guy can't stop looking at(in a good way)? Why can't I be the one he calls to say goodnight to? Why can't I be the one who he drives in the dead of night to see?
I don't know. I think I am going to go lay down and crawl into that ball now. I feel another Introverted time coming on.
Bye for now.
Anyways, the whole point of this blog. is to try and suss out why I am feeling this way.
I was talking last night with that guy. I think it scares me someone being really nice and the moment he stops talking for some reason I feel really insecure. I have MAJOR ISSUES. I guess that is one way to say it. Maybe I really just need to stop looking but right now at this point it's like telling me to stop breathing. I hate being this way but I don't know how to change it.
Next thing. I haven't gone to the gym in a very long time and am on my last nerve with how my half is the only half of the room that is clean.
I don't like this feeling. I try to be the funny, nice, sweet, honest , and flirty girl. But it always backfires for one reason or another. I don't know. I either come on too strong or not enough. I am sucky at this. I feel like I should crawl into a ball most days and just not move cause if i do it hurts. UGGG, why for once can't I find a realitonship and be happy again. I am happy when I am with my friends now and all but. I want to find love. I am hopeless romantic.
IS THIS GOD PUNISHING ME FOR HOW I BROKE UP WITH MY EX? IS THAT IT? was I wrong for breaking up with the guy who treated me like a child most days and ignored me for his music others? Why am I not allowed to want to be the thing a guy can't stop looking at(in a good way)? Why can't I be the one he calls to say goodnight to? Why can't I be the one who he drives in the dead of night to see?
I don't know. I think I am going to go lay down and crawl into that ball now. I feel another Introverted time coming on.
Bye for now.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Running out of things to say
Friend's boyfriend is coming to school to see her. She is excited he's coming. I am glad he makes her happy. I'll see him very soon I guess.
Had a intresting night talking to someone. He is nice. He told me about a lot of great music. which is cool. It is
"With a Heavy Heart" By Does it Disturb you, Yeah?
"With a Heavy Heart" By Does it Disturb you, Yeah?
Its a really fun song to dance around to. Well Just a small blog for now I have to take a nap I'm exhausted maybe I'll get the text he's alive if I stop waiting for it. Well off for my nap. Hope you all are keeping it real. Im tired and again....
DO Not believe what you see on Jersey Shore...the girls in Jersey are not all like that thank you very much.
K nap time.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Jersey Shore
OH MY GOD its ridiculous. This show is so freakin stereotypical. I am from near-ish there and wow. It's not like that. Some girls are like that yeah but not all. I'm not like that at all. They are ridiculous. I hate this show but I love it at the same time I started watching it like an hour ago and wow.
Still not all girls from Jersey are like that.
Just had to share.
Sky outside my window
SO procrastination on my homework due by 1:30 and totally tired. I should have taken a nap earlier. Now I am vegetating on here, postthelove.com, and facebook. All with beautiful Pandora giving me a soundtrack.
So much fun. Journey just popped up on my Rent station. Interesting.
Is there such thing as sleeping wide awake? lol I am really out of my mind tired right now. but gotta read my home work. Just wanted to share the epicness of my bordem with someone thank you.
Movie quotes
"Little Boys who play with Fire get their fingers burned."--Mama Mia
"Haven't lied to you this far and I'm not going to start now."--Keith
"From this moment on every voice that told you 'you can't ' is silenced"--Freedom Writers
"If you're going to limit yourself fine. Just don't let other people do it for you."--Gracie
"From this moment on every voice that told you 'you can't ' is silenced"--Freedom Writers
"If you're going to limit yourself fine. Just don't let other people do it for you."--Gracie
"Does Making a man a Knight make him a better fighter..."--Kingdom Of heaven
"Yes."
"Yes."
"What is a man that does not make the world better."--Kingdom of heaven
"What's the rush? We are here in a Yellow Truck a road in front of us and nothing but opportunities.
"What's the rush? We are here in a Yellow Truck a road in front of us and nothing but opportunities.
People Can Surprise You
I have spent most of my life worrying about what I look like (I was never good and keeping thin). As a result of this I haven't believed that someone actually would talk to me if they knew I liked them and if they knew what I looked like. Still Some one surprised me. He knows all of that and still we spoke on Facebook for a few hours. It was refreshing.
I hope each person who reads this finds someone who can surprise you too.
Its a great feeling when you find out that life isn't as black and white as you thought. Life is looking up. Hope you all have another adventurous day.
Its a great feeling when you find out that life isn't as black and white as you thought. Life is looking up. Hope you all have another adventurous day.
Oh Had another awesome dream last night. It was so simple but it was fantastic.
I was sitting in my favorite big leather chair but in a different house. I was reading and looked up to see the guy I like watching me. He smiled at the same time I did. Then he got up from the sofa and gave me a peck on the lips. The rest of the dream was different things mushed together that haven't happened my not. It was such a peaceful and relaxing dream that ended with us sleeping. Being in someone's arms is a great gift I think.
If you read this and remember any dreams you've had let me know. I'm a curious curious person.
Dress In Drag
Thank You College Guys. My school Just featured 10 masculine guys in a Backward Beauty Pageant Drag Show.
I respect them a whole lot more now that I saw at least 6 of them walk in heals with out falling or grimacing.
My friend was amazing. They of course made themselves out to be stereotypical drag queens just wish they all did voices and had wigs. IT was great. Just wanted to share that experience with you
I respect them a whole lot more now that I saw at least 6 of them walk in heals with out falling or grimacing.
My friend was amazing. They of course made themselves out to be stereotypical drag queens just wish they all did voices and had wigs. IT was great. Just wanted to share that experience with you
I hope they gained some respect for the trouble we go through each time we dress up for them.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
You really can't measure a DREAM
I never explained the title of my blog."You can't measure a Dream." was a quote from One Tree Hill. I absolutely love that show.When I heard it though is important.
I was really struggling with finding what I wanted to do with my life. I am terrified that once I publish my Novel It won't be Loved. I want to see my name on a Barnes and Noble bookshelf one day. I love to write and I really don't wanna do anything else. Unless I can be like a reader at a publishing company because Reading is my second love.Anyway. Those words are so true. You have to do what excites you. You have to dare to dream big because when You shoot for the moon you can at least land in the stars. Life for me is about chasing what excites and always knowing that the past is the adventures little and big that you can always look back too for inspiration.
Hope you all get a chance at some adventures soon
and can take the tittle of my blog to heart now MUCH LOVE :-)
I was really struggling with finding what I wanted to do with my life. I am terrified that once I publish my Novel It won't be Loved. I want to see my name on a Barnes and Noble bookshelf one day. I love to write and I really don't wanna do anything else. Unless I can be like a reader at a publishing company because Reading is my second love.Anyway. Those words are so true. You have to do what excites you. You have to dare to dream big because when You shoot for the moon you can at least land in the stars. Life for me is about chasing what excites and always knowing that the past is the adventures little and big that you can always look back too for inspiration.
Hope you all get a chance at some adventures soon
and can take the tittle of my blog to heart now MUCH LOVE :-)
Wonderland
You ever thought of how Wonderland would look if you were Alice?
I feel like this world is my wonderland as it is but if it was another land...I'd have to say I'd love to have animals talk. I'd love to know the Mad Hatter. (Especially if he is secretly Johnny Depp) .
My wonder land would would be so colorful. Things wouldn't have to make sense but I'd still understand. I'd always have smiles around me.
The Red queen would be defeated by myself over and over again.
I would be the warrior rising up to fight for the White Queen.
How would you want your wonderland to be?
Starving Your Self for School
My friend gave me the idea for this blog because she told me she hadn't eaten since lunch time yesterday and she wasn't going to go to lunch today.
Like any concerned friend I freaked on her. I told her she shouldn't do that of course. She has already done that once and almost passed out in the stairwell of our dorm.
I ask her why and she said "somethings like schoolwork are more important than food." I almost had my head explode right then.
NOTHING IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN KEEPING YOUR SELF HEALTHY.
NOTHING IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN KEEPING YOUR SELF HEALTHY.
I told her that and she thinks I am going crazy. I understand that school is tough and takes allot of time but you have to eat. Hello If you die or get sick from starving yourself your going to not be able to the work. School is not more important than taking care of yourself. You should always put yourself first before school Like that.
I usually put my friends first but if it get's in the way of my wellbeing like NOT EATING. I wont do it. Don't get me wrong I'd do anything for my friends I love them with all my heart. They are my extended family.
I usually put my friends first but if it get's in the way of my wellbeing like NOT EATING. I wont do it. Don't get me wrong I'd do anything for my friends I love them with all my heart. They are my extended family.
I hope anyone who reads this understands that you need to schedual your work around your meals. You have to eat. Starving yourself to get something is not the answer.
Hope you all take care of yourselves.
Great Music
Great song...Love the song and the movie. Put me right into a better mood after seeing the images from my last post.
Lowering Standards of Women.
Ok, SO I was just looking around on Facebook at pictures from girls I know who are still in high school. They are ridiculous.
Sookie from Jersey Shore is freaky looking. I don't see how or why girls want to look like her.
Also what is this obsession with looking like Baby Prostitutes.
No wonder girls end up with such crappy guys they lower their standers so far
and become girls again and aren't women at all.
They are so fake it's ridiculous. With white lipstick and the gigantic Poof. Yeah that show may be funny but still. Women shouldn't degrade themselves to look like some cheap whore like that. Sorry but that is what I feel.
Women in some places long ago were fighters. What ever happened to the honnor of that? What happened to the women standing tall and making the men come to them. Why have we relinquished control we have over our own image? We give into these ideals because we think the drinking and the sex and the make-up will get us that guy. But seriously do you really want him IF that is what he wants.
No wonder girls end up with such crappy guys they lower their standers so far
and become girls again and aren't women at all.
They are so fake it's ridiculous. With white lipstick and the gigantic Poof. Yeah that show may be funny but still. Women shouldn't degrade themselves to look like some cheap whore like that. Sorry but that is what I feel.
Women in some places long ago were fighters. What ever happened to the honnor of that? What happened to the women standing tall and making the men come to them. Why have we relinquished control we have over our own image? We give into these ideals because we think the drinking and the sex and the make-up will get us that guy. But seriously do you really want him IF that is what he wants.
I don't understand it SOME ONE EXPLAIN IT TOO ME.
I want a guy who wants me for me.
Not a guy who wants a boob job, nose job, make-up caked on face, or a easy ticket to the sack.
I am none of those things. Slap me if I ever become one please.
Not a guy who wants a boob job, nose job, make-up caked on face, or a easy ticket to the sack.
I am none of those things. Slap me if I ever become one please.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Perfect Moments..make the world go around.
Have you ever watched the sky turn from blue to black?
It's something I love to do but the moment I love most is when the sky in between those two. I love sitting outside on the campus in a wooden chair watching the sky become a blaze of orange and reds with hints of purple. The spring air is becoming beautiful. I'm not looking forward to more snow this Friday.
I am feeling really good right now. I didn't like looking into my old Journal not long ago and finding a lot of sadness.
Still it's great to realize I've come a long way. I am not a sad as I was. Yeah something get me down like any other person but I'm so happy I've gotten past all the old nonsense. I am a happier person these days. I don't know if it's because I am beginning to really see who I am on my own or what but I am Loving it. I feel like everything that once was important to me has evolved. I love my family but I know why now. I really understand that they are a large part of me. I know now that my reading, writing, movies, and music love all make me who I am. I am not as boring As I once thought. How many people can say they helped blow up a hot air balloon once. Or who can say that they Got photographed twice for a newspaper and Interviewed for one. Who can say they saved their friend from a bee stuck in their shirt. Who can say they discovered what it means to laugh yourself to tears driving home from school one day. Who can say that they have believed in more religions than they can count on one hand in their life time? How many can say that they have been ready to lay down their lives for people before? I am more interesting than I thought I don't know about how you all see me but I see myself better now than I did before. Hope I can show you that.
Post The Love
Posting allot today But hey I was looking a blog... and saw this video about about Post the love .com
Channing Tatum started the sight and from what I've read so far its great. and He is right
We don't tell the people we love them enough. We don't show the love we have enough. And Love is something that inspires my creativity and I wound not doubt it inspires yours.
We don't tell the people we love them enough. We don't show the love we have enough. And Love is something that inspires my creativity and I wound not doubt it inspires yours.
This world has allot of love to give and that love matters weather it be
For a person,
an animal, a song,
a saying, a time of day,
any moment in time that matters to you,
Look someone gives you,
The feeling you get when you hear a certain voice....We need to show this love... Because the World Is forgetting how much we do love.
For a person,
an animal, a song,
a saying, a time of day,
any moment in time that matters to you,
Look someone gives you,
The feeling you get when you hear a certain voice....We need to show this love... Because the World Is forgetting how much we do love.
Who is Better or Worse....Neither is
Did you ever notice our world has the defined ideals about which culture is better or worse than the other. So many believe that They are better than someone else. That maybe they think they are superior for whatever reason....
Well News Flash there is no better or worse...no superior or inferior...
Different is the word to use instead.
You can't judge a culture based on your own. You can't say a tribe in the African Safari is inferior to you just because they don't do what you do...or what the majority does.
We have no right to do this because we don't know the motives and the fuel behind thier actions. We don't know the methods they chose to believe in...
We haven't lived in their shoes long enough to judge them one bit. How is that fair?
What we can do is say they are different...I don't want to be that way but they can. They will progress on their own scale...We can offer things that we think help but give them the choice. Don't say your better. Don't say your superior. Be helpful when the people want it.
What ever that culture decides to do is their choice. They chose to live that way. So I can't stop or hinder that.
I told this argument to one of my classes and another classmate asked me if a friend of my chose to commit suicide and I knew would I stop them?
I said of course I would. She then Pointed out the fact I just went against my own rule but in truth I didn't I said I would try to stop them but each person makes the choice to listen to another. I could talk to that person Till I'm blue in the face and It may not change their choice.
Well News Flash there is no better or worse...no superior or inferior...
Different is the word to use instead.
You can't judge a culture based on your own. You can't say a tribe in the African Safari is inferior to you just because they don't do what you do...or what the majority does.
We have no right to do this because we don't know the motives and the fuel behind thier actions. We don't know the methods they chose to believe in...
We haven't lived in their shoes long enough to judge them one bit. How is that fair?
What we can do is say they are different...I don't want to be that way but they can. They will progress on their own scale...We can offer things that we think help but give them the choice. Don't say your better. Don't say your superior. Be helpful when the people want it.
What ever that culture decides to do is their choice. They chose to live that way. So I can't stop or hinder that.
I told this argument to one of my classes and another classmate asked me if a friend of my chose to commit suicide and I knew would I stop them?
I said of course I would. She then Pointed out the fact I just went against my own rule but in truth I didn't I said I would try to stop them but each person makes the choice to listen to another. I could talk to that person Till I'm blue in the face and It may not change their choice.
It's horrible to think of someone I know going there and I hope all my friends know they can talk to me if they get to that point. I don't want to think of not being able to help some one but some people won't listen. Some people can't see that path your trying to help them on. Either way I'll offer my hand to help someone else always.
From Peaceful Warrior movie
"You can Chose to be a victim or anything else you'd like to be."
"There is no starting or stopping only DOING."
From Peaceful Warrior movie
"You can Chose to be a victim or anything else you'd like to be."
"There is no starting or stopping only DOING."
Quick Thought
Wanted to share the songs I'm listening too allot lately ...
Gravity by Sara Bareilles ---its good or so I think
Time of Dying---Dashboard Confessional
Alice---Avril Lavigne or however you spell her last name...
When I look at you---Miley Cyrus yes I like her music...admit it you do too
Time of Dying---Dashboard Confessional
Alice---Avril Lavigne or however you spell her last name...
When I look at you---Miley Cyrus yes I like her music...admit it you do too
Note to readers: I Cant spell and I know this....
First BLOG ever
Hi, I guess as you can tell this is my first blog. I am a newbie.
The point of this blog is mainly for me to come closer to who I am. I'll post poetry, quotes I love from all different things. I'll just babble like today. I'll write just about anything. You decide If you like it.
I've been searching for things that define me all my life. I wanna know everything about myself. I've yet to test my own limits. I wish I knew how strong I could be.
I am always questioning things.
I should let you all who read this know I don't lie if I can help it. If its something that will hurt no one than i don't see the point in lying. Who has time to be embarrassed right.
So I read non-stop, I write a bunch too, I am working on my own novel. I love movies. I hate horror films though. I have no idea what I am wanna do with my life besides be a writer but don't know how well that will work. I know I'd be happy with simple life.
The point of this blog is mainly for me to come closer to who I am. I'll post poetry, quotes I love from all different things. I'll just babble like today. I'll write just about anything. You decide If you like it.
I've been searching for things that define me all my life. I wanna know everything about myself. I've yet to test my own limits. I wish I knew how strong I could be.
I am always questioning things.
I should let you all who read this know I don't lie if I can help it. If its something that will hurt no one than i don't see the point in lying. Who has time to be embarrassed right.
So I read non-stop, I write a bunch too, I am working on my own novel. I love movies. I hate horror films though. I have no idea what I am wanna do with my life besides be a writer but don't know how well that will work. I know I'd be happy with simple life.
Ok, for something interesting. I had a strange dream last night. I was in a school I knew that much. I was talking to a friend who I call Green Bean. I don't remember what was said. It was then out of nowhere that someone (I'd met face to face once and developed a crush on) came up and hugged me. Then pulling back he kissed me. It was a very good kiss to say the least. Then out of nowhere I was walking to a non-descriptive car in my old high school's parking lot and he appeared again I vaguely remember him saying something. He pulled me too him again and kissed me allot more. When I woke up I could still feel that kiss on my lips. It was really strange. I'd never had such a vivid dream before. Now I can't get that image out of my head. I can't forget that feeling. Strangely I don't want to though. Can you blame me?
Well so I'll jot down some poetic verse I'd randomly thought of trying to help a friend yesterday.
The military drumming
matches my seismic
heart a thrumming.
the sight of the untainted
battlefield is waiting so stunning.
The first blood
will taint our angel faces.
We are blessed
by God's Love
The winner of this battle
is chosen only by him in heaven
above.
matches my seismic
heart a thrumming.
the sight of the untainted
battlefield is waiting so stunning.
The first blood
will taint our angel faces.
We are blessed
by God's Love
The winner of this battle
is chosen only by him in heaven
above.
Suggestions for more are welcome...
Don't know when I'll post next but hope if I email you this Your read it when I do.
Cause maybe some light I shed on My life sheds light on yours too.
Don't know when I'll post next but hope if I email you this Your read it when I do.
Cause maybe some light I shed on My life sheds light on yours too.
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