Fear is Crippling!!!!!

I'm scared.

With everyday i grow older coming closer to the time when i need to figure out what I want in life. I fell like i don't know what that is but in truth I'm scared.

Scared becuase i want nothing more than to be a writer and or a Director or a Screenwriter. That's what I wanna be. What I'm worried about though is living a survivalble life with those jobs. Nothing is a garentee but those jobs aren't for people who need steady paychecks.

I don't see myself doing anything else anymore. Yeah I could be a lingist possibly at the CIA or somepalce else I don't know. But I dont see myself doing that. I don't feel like I fit those things. I feel like one of the three things I said before is what I want.

Still the Fear is crippling because I don't know how to get to the place where i can be those things. I don't know how to risk everything to be those. But its all I want


WHAT DO I DO? i need a little bit of guidence here. Help please.