Time hath passed and yet it lasts

Hi, wow it's been awhile since I've posted but i wanted to post because i read something about blogging and I missed me Dream space. I've been trying to write as much as i possibly can but it's been tough, i've been working on my school papers ect. College is fun but papers kick my butt some times. but still i love it...I just started to work on my Huge Research Project for my Crusades class and I LOVE the topic. its answering the questions What power did religious relics provide to the successes in the Crusading movement and what evidence is there to show the power relics held in the religion in general? What kept the people devoted to these relics after they are stolen, and what drew them to these symbols? Are Relics symbols too? I'm having a lot of fun with it. Well I'll try and write again soon. HOpe you enjoy the poem. :)

Here is a poem i wrote a while ago.

A-17
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It’s a song,
it’s a boy,
it’s a story,
And a memory.

It was a cold October day
working the ticket stand.
The old movies of loves
to marvel at.
It was that night
at the bar,
that night dancing,
that night lying still
in your arms.
The song
was playing
on our heartstrings.
Melding us together
like melting.
A-17 is our soundtrack.

But how does the sound
carry to deft ears.
Some wont understand
that what makes my day
is you holding my hand.
We’ve fought tooth
and nail to stay locked
for years. But they
say we wont last
that we wont stay.
They are wrong...

A-17 embodies us.
It’s still there
at the same number
In the old diner jukebox
covered in dust.
Every year
we’ve come back
to the place where
we met.

We owe A-17
a wealthy debt. For our love
will last forever yet.

Writers way

Have you ever realized that your world isn't exactly what you want it to be? Have you ever realized you have been doing exactly what your best at? I love to write. i love to watch T.V. i love to immerse myself in fantasy. SO that's what I'm doing. I'll get a job where i can but for now I'm going to write. I want to be the female Richard Castle.

After all "The Pen is mightier than the sword."


I want to write fantasies that have a twinge of reality. I want to provide worlds for those out there like me who thirst for more than just life.

How often does this world provide a clear path? it doesn't maybe through writing I'll find my own. Is the world meant to be explained though? I'm not so sure it its. Mystery is so much more alluring.

Watching Castle. I love writing and this show is perfect for the TV,Comedy,Mystery, and a writer. he made a good point in the last episode

"Until tomorrow", is more poetic-ish, instead of saying "night" it gives more of a sense of hope.

So my readers

Until Tomorrow!

Noisy world

The world is full of noise. right now I'm sitting in a house that has no power in a hallway by an emergency light because I'm terrified of the dark. Sitting across from me is my boyfriend G-- he is listening to something about his favorite band. I can hear him typing,his show, and his voice. Downstairs someone has power in some of the rooms and i can hear someone talking,someone else playing music. I can hear a t.v and if i listen close enough a little while ago i could hear sirens outside. The world is noisy even when things go wrong. We love noise. our world revolves around it. Without noise how do you know your alive? How do you know someone is in pain?

But sometimes its nice not to hear. The bullies don't want to hear how evil they are. the bullied wish they couldn't hear the bullies. We don't want to hear we are wrong. we don't want to hear we've failed. we don't want to hear we've lost. We don't want to hear someone's gone. Regardless of what we want we still have to hear it.

How do we forget what we've heard though? We don't we can use what we've heard. We can use what we hear.

For the bullies though I'd say use whats said and change what's causing the problems.

For the bullied i know it hurts trust me I've been there a thousand different ways. i was tortured in middle school but i found the one friend that was important to me. I suggest looking for that person and realize some people like those bullies aren't worth your time. Realize that no matter what they say it doesn't change that you are amazing just the way you are. Heck they'll probably be pumping your gas when your out of school. I know everyone says that. i had to have heard that thirty times a day when i was in middle school but never believed it but I'm in collage now. I have a great boyfriend who I'd never imagined loving me back then but he does and i love him. I've got a great best friend back home. I have a good friends here at school. I'm doing great. I know that anyone who's being bullied too can survive it too. I know there are much worse cases than what i went through people are viscous so Here is my whole message to the bullied out there trying to deal with the noise....

Be strong. I know you can be. You are exactly who your meant to be. No one can change that unless it's you doing the changing. Be whoever you want to be. Who you are builds what life your going to have. Be you, don't worry about being the absolute best version just be you. It's ok to make mistakes sometimes. You learn from them. You are powerful. You can not let them take it from you. Their words can cut but the second you stop listening to them and instead listen to your heart you'll be happier. They won't understand but they will move one because bullies go for the ones they'll get a reaction from. Don't give in. Just change the noise into fuel for your fire so you can burn as the hotter brighter and more powerful flame i know is inside you all.



If you don't like hearing your wrong. Before you speak make sure your right but also recognize it's ok to be wrong. No one is always right. But also know that if someone else is wrong they don't have to be right. Don't attack them for being wrong. I've had enough of that to know it's really annoying and not fun. No one wants to hear they are wrong so if you know for sure that your right lay it on the wrong person gently/subtly or hold your tongue.

Knowing that your grades are poor or knowing you've failed in general sucks. I have such issues with that in the past few months. If you know someone has had it rough don't Pick on it!!! its not fair.and it's not nice. It's the same if someone lost to you at something. Don't gloat if they are disappointed.


I am sorry for anyone whose lost someone. I hope your time is easier. Don't pester those you know who has lost someone just be there for them. Everything will be ok. You can survive.

The world has a lot of noise make sure you control what you pay attention too and what you create.

What's noise for you