Sad and Angry People

The world is full of pain and angry people. I've noticed that alot lately. Some are just down right mean to you then there are others who are twisted. They stick the knife in your back and make you look the other way while they twist the blade. It kills me to know I have people like that in my life. I know who they are now but for my own reasons I keep them there. I don't entirely know why I keep them there but I do....

The Anger these people is their own and not mine. I am realizing more and more that I can't let their problems dictate my life. My life is my own. I am a person who choses her own path. I chose to live how I want. Most of the time my life is not on the beaten path so the people coming against me are large in number but I have to deal with it like we all do.

I've always questioned "God"'s existance but if he's there then I just hope he realizes we need him now. I know my life is no where near bad but sometimes I just wish I knew that he was on our side. I have so much trouble believeing in a God who let's all the pain I've seen happen. I wasn't raised religous so that isn't something I grew through the years with so I guess that could be why I'm not PRO GOD. But either way look around you and look at the starving children. Look at the self center and angry people out there. Is really ok that they exist like this. Why are they there? DO THEY TRUELY MAKE US STRONGER?

What comes with these Angry people is usally Sad people.

NOw the Sad people are a little more important to me cause if thier sad then maybe I can help...But that's not always true.

I had a blast from the past not to long ago a few minuets ago actually. my Junior year in Highschool a guy I used to know a little (we were by no means close) took his own life. The days that followed that were devestating. I knew his ex-girlfirend at the time and i've never seen someone cry so hard. I don't know if I could take it myself. I HOPE IF GOD DOES EXIST HE CAN HELP HER FIND PEACE.

Sad people are always looking for something I think. Some need a helping hand. Some need someone to listen. Some need someone to support them. Some need to be left alone and figure things out for themselves. There are some who need you to break through the walls they have put up and break them down. Some need you to force them to deal with an issue. Some need to stand on their own feet some need to breathe agian. Some need to talk. SOme need to cry. Some need to hit something. Some need someone to hold them. SOme need a heart to embrace theirs. Some need ot know that there is some one out there to care about them. Some need love or forgivness. SOme need to feel something again......

I was one of those sad people once. In ways I still am but I've come far. I am happier alot more. I am more clear on who I want to be abd How I want to live and that makes me Happy. I hope those Sad and Angry people can get there too. I was Angry too. I still do get Mad/Pissed/Fuming which ever word you want to use or understand. Of course I do. We all do. SOme people just wont let go of that anger. I am doing my best to fix that. I hope if anyone is reading this u are too.

Be Mad and Sad if you have to be but as I see it survial depends on seeing the bright side. which if nothing else seems bright know this.....

YOU ARE ALIVE AND I CARE ABOUT YOU.